HOW are you able to EVER GET USE TO BEING REJECTED? settle for continuously BEING REJECTED?
I want MY LIFE HAS BEEN full of a lot of REJECTION THAN ACCEPTANCE…
WHAT’S creating Maine FEELING THIS LATELY?…
WELL, simply FINDING troublesome FOR BAASIL to love and like the corporate OF OTHERS, LIKE MY MUM, AND DEMONSTRATES THAT BY touching Maine AND ferociously PUSHING Maine AWAY once solely MINUTES BEFORE we tend to WERE COOL, LAUGHING, JOKING…IS MY LIFE continuously LIKE THIS WITH PEOPLE? THAT I will solely HAVE an oz. OF HAPPINESS, RELIEF then IM YESTERDAY NEWS?
PUTS Maine BACK TO MY CORNER OF LONELINESS, SADNESS…LONGING for somebody UN agency can selected TO STAY…BUT IN LIFE, no one DOES…SO WHAT WILL?
IM therefore displeased IT…
REJECTED BY MOTHER COZ i used to be NOT good, COZ i used to be NOT HER, COZ I HAD NOTHING to indicate OR FELT i want to indicate TO convince the globe IM SOMEONE…
REJECTED BY FATHER (ABSENT) COZ HE favourite HIS PLANTS a lot of (TRUST Maine, THATS the most factor MY oldsters EVER FIGHT concerning, EVEN NEARLY created America children INTO FOSTER CARE) AND SAW HIS FREE SERVICE TO everybody ELSE a lot of necessary THAN HIS FAMILY…
UNFRIENDED ON FACEBOOK BY THOSE WHOM BY FACE THOUGHT we tend to WERE very CHUMS…I GUESS NOT…
REJECTED COZ IM NOT YOUNG, RICH, ELITE, EGYPTIAN, BLONDE, RUSSIAN, DESI, EUROPEAN, WITH NON-BROWN EYES AND A HOT BODY NOT A BALLOON, ATTRACTIVE, FREE FROM BLEMISHES, WHO’S NOT ALLOWED TO FEEL OR BELIEVE OR rise up FOR THINGS…AND HAD BEAR the results -ALONE…
REJECTED COZ I needed LOVE, HAD DONE EVERYTHING worthy OF THEIR LOVE, perhaps QUITE urgently therefore however STILL WASN’T price IT…OR BE USED, PUSHING the bounds once trying BACK THAT IF they'd MaineT ME currently, I WOULDN’VE BEEN THE ONE REJECTING THEM…BUT IT SUCKS continuously BEING THE LAST ONE STANDING…WITH ALL THIS PAIN, REGRET, HEARTBREAK…
REJECTED BY MYSELF…MY BODY THAT I’VE leaving behind AND AM making an attempt to just accept EVEN once ITS NOT HEALTHY and might SURRENDER ON Maine AT ANY TIME…MY CONFIDENCE THATS EMPTY, continuously NEEDING REASSURANCES FROM OTHERS to inform Maine IM OK, TO URGE Maine TO STILL FIGHT IN obtaining the most effective, TO BE UP FOR A CHALLENGE that I FEEL I DENIED MYSELF once MY MOST rancorous BANKWEST MANAGER CHALLENGED ME…BUT STILL, I unsuccessful and will NOT SHOW TO MYSELF, TO everybody i'm higher..COZ perhaps IM NOT…
AND ITS THIS mental attitude THAT CRIPPLES Maine…THAT MAKES ME attempt to RUN aloof from THE worry and check out to shop for TIME…DREAMING OF FARAWAY LANDS sort of a exile TO ONESELF as a result of i'm A COWARD during this OWN BODY…
WHERE is that the LOVE???
BUT AMONGST THE ENDLESS REJECTION there's ONE factor I anticipate TO awakening, LIVING every day -THATS ALLAH’S ACCEPTANCE…COZ HE is aware of BEST…
I DONT REGRET RESIGNING FROM BANKWEST, however IM unsure IF IM READING TO BE IN ANOTHER WORK setting, BE able to DELIVER DESPITE EVERYTHING, BE able to BLOCK OR MANAGE EVERYTHING, TO STILL keep HEALTHY, TO CRUISE AMONGST WORK POLITICS, to travel UP THE RANKS AND EARN a lot of DOUGH therefore i'm NOT A BURDEN TO ANYONE, THAT I will relish no matter i need AND STILL BE able to offer the most effective TO BAASIL…
INSHA’ALLAH…ONE DAY…INSHA’ALLAH